knocked the wind right out of my sails...

From time to time, a fond memory will slip into view and I will wonder about a long lost friend. The internet is a fabulous way to search out those folks. The only problem is that I am right on the edge of the computer savy generation. After all, I was born before cell phones, crap.... I was born before color TV !! I have come a long way, anyhoo, back to my tale.
I consider myself good at my trade, and I had some good teachers in my time. One died many years ago, but the man that taught me how to cut hair (and eventually became my "boyfriend") was lost to the past, living in Washington D.C.
I was thinking of him and just popped up Dogpile and gave a search for his name. HE is still flying below the radar (as are many in my peer group).
BUT!! there was his son's email address attached to a tennis forum post out of the DC area.
I wrote to him and inquired of his dad. I left a link to my salon webpage.
I got a phone call within a few days from my long-lost sweety/mentor. He asked if I had married, had kids, etc. and we talked about the salon .
He is making custom wood cabinetry now and is a competition bar-b-q chef, like on the grill master show. I asked if he had remarried and he said no (!)
He told me to fly to DC and he would roll out the red carpet, yippee that sounded like fun, I started checking airline flights, and we have been talking several times a week, he called me on Valentines day too.
I repeat, he does NOT have a computer.
So today I ask for his address, which he gives me, and I go straight to Google earth, now I am looking right at his Suburban, and his grillin rig, and..... his shop. NOT his home, but a shop.
Now as any FEMALE who is single will know by now, this only means one thing, he is NOT single.
So when we talked this evening I asked him if I would be staying at his house when I come up, (long pause) then I just said "you live with someone, don't you?" yes, he does, and I would be traveling to stay in a hotel and have a fling with someone else's man. I dont think so, do you?? He is 63 years old!! isn't that old enough not to be a dog?
I am feeling really let down. I dont have any respect for folks who will live with someone, or marry them and then act like they could care less about that person. I think even less of folks who latch on to anyone to keep from having to row their own boat. Can't a decent person just be single?? Why would they need a human pacifier to keep from feeling lonely? I DO care for myself too much to go through with his plan. dammit!! I was really looking forward to it.


PS should I go and let him buy the ticket and put me up and them not "do it" ?
call in my "just friends" card???