My dog Chuck... a challenging mix of exuberant love, mixed with goofiness, and a short fuse. I always knew that Chuckie was going to present me with an abundance of challenges , and I was right.He came to me completely eaten up by demodex mange
. My choice was "take him or we're putting him down". no-brainer. It took me a year to get him healthy .
about the time I got him all furred up, he ate his frisbee (yes, ate, in little pieces) along with some stuffing from a toy. I rushed him to the emergency vet and, VOILA' ...$5,000 later he was fine, but not much brighter. 
His next issue was a simple ear infection that took four treatments and three months to cure! WTF!!
. My choice was "take him or we're putting him down". no-brainer. It took me a year to get him healthy .about the time I got him all furred up, he ate his frisbee (yes, ate, in little pieces) along with some stuffing from a toy. I rushed him to the emergency vet and, VOILA' ...$5,000 later he was fine, but not much brighter. His next issue was a simple ear infection that took four treatments and three months to cure! WTF!!Chuckie also had a go-round with my senior female Cleo, and cost me $300 to close the wound he gave her . (Cleo is the one with the mohawk)
Chuckie has always been one of those creatures who, except for love, could never, ever be worth what he has cost me. Because of his temperament, I was never going to be able to leave him out of his crate unattended.
Chuckie has always been one of those creatures who, except for love, could never, ever be worth what he has cost me. Because of his temperament, I was never going to be able to leave him out of his crate unattended.Tonight, one of those things happened that I cannot really feel right now.
I put goofy Chuck in the truck and took him all the way to the end of the road, in the park, and let him out, he took off. Now what I do is take off and he chases the truck for about a 1/4 mile, and I stop and he jumps back in all huffy and drooly and we go home
But somehow Chuck had looped back in the dark and ( remember he is not real bright) he attempted to stop my truck. He shot from the side, in the dark and I never even saw a thing, nothing. Just the horrible thud that told me it was going to get ugly. I jumped out and saw him running away,. I called and he came right back and jumped in the truck. I saw the blood starting to come from his mouth and he had a convulsion. I rushed for all I was worth to the emergency clinic, and ran in screaming "my dog is dying" he was.... he did... I am so sorry Chuck.
I can never explain how thin the line between ok and NOT ok is. Chuckie I loved you and you knew it. I cannot accept that I ran over my own dog. I have run dogs like that all my life, only Chuckie thought he was big enough to stop a truck. I am not looking forward to waking up tomorrow with out him
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when i first read your email...with this link to your blog of july 28th...i thought...you must be kidding...this is gonna be some kind of funny entry...then as i read your blog...i knew what was coming...I'M SO SORRY to hear this...and for what it's worth...i DO know how you feel...years ago...as i was leaving for work one morning...(my cat used to like to sleep on the car tires)...she must've been in a deep sleep...i started the engine...backed up...and felt the thud...
it's a horrible feeling...deep inside...to lose your pet...your friend...your baby...there's not too much to say to make you feel better...except that i feel your pain...and hope that you can work your way through this...your are such a loving,caring MOM to ALL your 'children'...their life wouldn't have been what it was without you! love, laura
oh honey i am just so sorry, so very sorry. i know you loved your chuckie like i love mine. i am very sad today...
big hugs, bee
xxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo
sorry about chuckie, I know how upset you must be.
JoAnne: Please know that I have notified Britzie, Clyde, Bubba, Josh, and Shadow I to hook up with Chuckie in puppy heaven and welcome him with open paws.
I am crying, I am so sorry. I know how much you loved him. I hope God takes good care of him.
I’m speechless…. I can’t even imagine what you are feeling today – but I do know this, my Very Christian Sister…. Its all about forgiveness, and the first thing you have to do is to “hand it up,” and forgive yourself. Had it not been for you, Chuckie would have been gone a long time ago. You gave him more TLC than anyone else would have. My thoughts are prayers are with you.
I am sooo sorry to hear about Chuckie, he knows you love him. And just know that now he can be his goofy self and never worry about getting hurt again. I am saying a little prayer for you today, that God will comfort you.
I know there is nothing to say thru my tears....and snot dog's sad snorts.....Just know he knew you loved him.....that's why he kept coming back....Hopefully in doggy heaven he'll be a little less dopey.....I am so very sorry.......(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))
Dear Jo,
All my love & thoughts are with you. You give so much to animals and you gave Chuckie a quality life that he would not have had if not for you. He knows how much you loved him and will be waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge.
I love you,
JG
wow ... i hadta reed yer story two timez.
i am reelee so sorry to heer abowt da grate chuck. he wuzza wild an crazy guy ... and ... az d-o-gz go ... he wuz reelee hansum.
i hope u ar ok. i am thinkin abowt u ... an ... i'm gointa put chuck'z pikshur on mi blog today...
jus fer u.
luv--jh
Oh, JJ, I am sitting here crying with you. Belle, Ginger, and Chopper are greeting Chuckie right now in doggie heaven, where he's gonna be both happy and smart! Big, big hugs to you...you know that sorrows shared are cut in half.
So sorry I know how it hurts. I've lost too many of my animal friends in the last 4 years.
I saw this on a bumper sticker a few years ago -
Lord help me be the person my dog thinks I am.
I try to live by it. I know Chuckie thought you were that person, no matter what.
Love,
Lowell
We saw Chuck's picture on Jeter's blog and stopped over to say how sorry we are. We can only imagine how terrible you feel that this happened and your Chuck is gone.
purrs, hugs and tail wags
You have my deepest thoughts about Chuckie. I know the sorry you feel. My Cody, I had for 14 years and I still look up to the heavens and talk to him. Time will help, but the loss will always be there. Love Mother
Joanne,
It took me a night of crying and feeling your pain to write to you I didn't expect this when you sent me your blog and my heart was hurting for you You are a wonderful person who cares deeply for Gods creatures...on the a brighter side their will be another Chuckie that will be blessed (as chuckie was) to call you mom and JUST think of another angel you will have rescued (an angel like Chuckie)Love Tracy
Oh ... I am so sorry. I can't even imagine how sad you must be! There is nothing I can say, but I am sending hugs!
i dont even know what to say im in tears just reading this. i know how much chuck meant to you. he was one of my favorite dogs eventhough i only met him once or twice. im so so so sorry. this is for you chuck: eventhough i only met you once i think you are still the coolest pitbull in the world. Heres to all the treats, frisbies, and stuffed animals in doggie heaven. heres to you joanne i know how much you love chuckie. i raise a glass to you and your wonderful relationship with him you are in my prayers. love you always. rip chuckie
I saw Miss Bee's post about Chuckie and had to come offer my condolenses. I am so sorry, and can only imagine how terrible you are feeling. Like others have said, perhaps he's much brighter now!
Hugs! Big squishy loving hugs...
Now, 10 days are gone past, I am still so remorseful. I was going to sleep tonight, and suddenly the BANG! of my truck hitting him went through my body again. It does that whenever it wants to. Then I cry again.
Oh my gosh, I am so sorry!!! I was doing an internet search on mange because I think my puppy has it. Well your blog post from Dec 2006 was in the results. I was excited because I also blog so I went to your main page to see if you were still blogging and I read this...I'm so sad for you. I would love any advice you can give regarding the mange you dealt with but if you can't, I completely understand.
Again, I am so sorry...
OMG.... i feel so bad for you. I now understand. I, too, have accidently killed a pet. I also sat back and let someone else continue to kill my pets. I know the guilt you feel. I will keep you in my prayers, praying for the ability to forgive yourself for something you surely never meant to do. You loved him dearly and gave him a life he would not otherwise have had. Be kind to yourself. Sincerely, Terry
To D. Deckard, Thanks for your compliment on my blog. But the callousness of your comment on this particular subject forced me to delete it.
Feel free to think I have my head in the sand, or whatever, but we dont see things in the same light. I am a humane , compassionate person, and give where there is need as it is presented. I currently actively support my local homeless ministry and have for many years.
My sweet Chuck was NEVER "on his last leg" until I made the fatal error of not turning down the truck radio, or I would have heard him running in on the side, right by my door. I can live with, and accept, my mistake and forgive myself.
Where we see differently is in the statement you made about how animals think and feel. I have no doubt that given understanding, they are capable of a full range of emotions, and rationale. The problem they have, is by being domesticated, they have voluntarily submitted themselves to the keeping of a species that cares to little to see them as anything other than a possesion.
Many of the things you said hurt me on a personal level, and insulted the memory of a fine and fearles animal, loyal and loving, whom I still miss daily. I bought the new pup because the other "pack members" ( five, all female, all spayed) were greiving, as was I.
Wow, well I won't follow suit and be insulted like you were, lets just say that we drastically disagree. I think one of the problems with this world is that we have elevated animals and lowered humans to the point where they are on an equal plane, and they are certainly not.
Dogs are not "capable of a full range of emotions", sorry, but this has been proven many times by science and just sensible observation. Animals aren't human. We are charged, by God, to be kind to them and take care of them, but they are not human. When you place them on the same level as humans, you walk a very slippery slope, because in doing that you dehumanize man/woman.
I thought my comment was kind to you. It's true that it contained humor, but... oh well, I guess some folks just can't deal with an alternate viewpoint, and that is fine.
My sense it that you do not have children of your own, for if you did, you and I would not be having this discussion. I used to think I could love my children no more than I loved my dog, when my son was born I realized how stupid that thought was, very quickly. Having children re-humanized people for me.
Anyway, I still think you're a nice person and I wish you all the best.
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